Botany, toffee nut & e-gate

OK this is the third year (or forth) that I’m blogging about the toffee nut-craving. It’s time of the year again when starbucks started serving toffee nut latte & frappucino. Nice.

I miss the sweet toffee nut taste in my mouth. Yep, you can not drink it on a regular term, you’ll get bored with it. However, this is a seasonal drink, so I kind of anticipated this drink towards end of the year – nearing christmas. Ah. I just love toffee nut. I may be exaggerating it too much but I don’t care, i LIKE it.

Had venti’s at the e-gate with my lecturer just now, while reading my botany lecture notes. How dry & boring the notes are (and remind me of the form 5 and/or matriculation biology where I have to memorize the structure of flowers), but since my left hand holding a toffee nut, I don’t mind digging my head to the notes.

Yep. I’m still studying for my botany paper. Wish me luck. Tooo much to read, tooo little time to digest. Ah, blame it on last minutes studying. Dang!

I am forever 21

I can’t deny that I break down this morning when I digitize the landuse of Penang. He,he and fought with the great ones. However, the great one calm me down and help me to come back to my senses. I haven’t sobbed so much this year. Well, then I went to Queensbay alone to calm my mind & sooth my feeling. I don’t know why I am being emotional these days. Maybe due to the workload stress accumulating etc and suddenly, a night before I snapped. I had a heartiful lunch meal with a complimentary of green tea ice-cream. I like.

Then the fun part begin. I spent quite alot in Forever 21. OMG OMG OMG. Retail therapy really works! It bring smiles to my face. Weeeee!

and guess what, I bought the hot pink tube dress & the rose with black-ground dress, and a hot and body-hugging halter. Imagine a floral dress with a huge hat for tea party? That’s how it is. Bought two long-sleeve tees and a grey legging. Oh heaven. I would love to shop again after my land survey paper finish.

Apart from that, I bought a nice, yummy strapless pushup from lasenza. Honestly, I don’t really like their lingerie, I prefer triumph, or victoria’s secret.

Apart from that, Borders selling Eleven Minutes of Paolo Coelho and I bought it straight away. Weee!

Bought a set of mini-donut from J.Co for my fellow studio-mate.

Came back around 6.30 pm and I get a text from my lecturer, inviting for japanese-dinner. Then we went off to Queensbay for Sakae Sushi again! wooooh.

… and here I am, contented, full.. and a lil’ bit guilty because I should start studying Botany tonight.

However, I heart forever 21.

Oh i am forever 21.

ah!

P-p-p poker face

Hey ya all. GIS paper went alright today. Not going to give high hope on that but *cross fingers* everything going to be alright. Well, this week has yet to bring smile to me. I am particularly becoming more and more serious due to the study-load for the final examination. It scare some people & i find it funny that I am becoming more expressive here. I had a great argument with the great ones last night in which I’m not looking forward to the morning phone call. Not sure it was remembered by the other party but definitely cut a knife to my heart. Cest la vie.

Some things are meant to be talked about when both are sober & not under influenced. Because by doing so, some virtue will cover up the unspoken disagreement rather than just spill everything out without caring the other receiver’s feeling. And it’s not cool to actually attack the other party during the critical time. That is just plain selfish.

Anyway, that’s that. Hey-yo!

Numbness

I am confused. Scared. Terrified of the idea that I’m not feeling anything anymore. I feel numb. I’m not feeling that excruciating painful heartache anymore. Does it mean, I have already letting it go? Or does it mean, that I have… moved on?

Or does it because that I’m crazy busy with my studio project and university assignment that part of my brain turn that particular area off for a moment and it can be turned on anytime soon? Will I be able to not feeling it anymore, or would the feeling creeping back to me when my mind drifted or that I’m not occupied with work anymore?

Will it come back to me?

I have not feeling it for the past 3 weeks as my mind totally shut it down, due to the loaded work/assignment-load. In a way, I am feeling grateful for the havoc of sleepless week and mind-bogging journey of completing everything, overnight. However, it got me thinking, I’m feeling numb.

Please tell me I have moved on. Please tell me, it’s gone. Please tell me, I won’t be in that situation anymore. and please tell me, i won’t cry over those petty things anymore.

… and please assure me that when I’m flying back to KK after my final exam, I can finally move on. Being in KK brings back more emotional disturbance to me. I rather live plasticly in Penang, rather than feeling that agony in KK.

some part of me, doesn’t really want to move on. Argh. It’s such a bitch feeling of insecurity and undecided on which path of emotion and thought that I want to go further.

Dang.

I should be studying on my paper tomorrow, the GIS.

Till then.

 

Happy tuesday

Good morning ya’all!  This is the first morning post after a few months of not seeing sunrise (I slept when the sun rise & wake up when the sun set, typical vampire!). ekekekeke.

It’s good to have 8 hours of sleep too! 8 hours of sleep feels like I’m sleeping for 2 days worth of sleeping. dang. All these while, I’ve been getting max of 5 hours sleep and average sleeping time of 4 hours (and that include waking up in the middle of 4 hours). Really kills my body & mind. I’ve been getting the worse panda eyes, and sepet too. dang.

Completed my first exam paper yesterday and another one would be on the 5th. Wish me luck. I shall get down to studying now. Now, real studying; as in reading books, notes etc.

Let me enjoy my hazelnut white coffee & a Tesco coffee bun and I’ll keep in touch with ya’all again later

Happy tuesday!

Studio, finale

This been killing me this week. Thanks to 1000mg shots of ascorbic acid & caffeine. Burning the night oil has been pushed to the maximum. Pray that I will stay well until the end of final exam for this semester. Or else, pray hard my 24 years of intelligence to help me to bull shit on the sheets. Anyhow. Yours truly being vain by posting the attached photo for your viewing pleasure. Or not.

Credit to my fellow LA-mate for taking the above photo.

I am currently finishing up my botany & ecology assignment, submission today & tomorrow.

Oh, btw, the LA clan were having the end of studio BBQ at Dataran Merah, HBP last night. It was full with glory, glory food; prawn, fish, crab, kebab’s, potato salad, etc. I ate like I”ve never eaten seafood before. Dang.

Credit to my dear lecturer for the above-photo. I take it from your fb album, Dr. ekekeke.

Oriental Garden

This what have been keeping me from the blog-sphere world. Pardon me for lack of words here. I’ll try to add mode photos though. cheers!

The other group model photos

Bonkers, bonkers!

Hahahahahaha it’s 4.03 am and I’m running high in the studio. ha,ha.

Just finished watching How I Met Your Mother, Heroes and Gossip Girl and I just finished up one of my assignment: a 20 m by 20 m garden model in sketchup. 

… and below are the sucky results.

Dear lecturers, please grade this an A. and I love you forever! tqvm.

Perspective view

Section elevation 1

Section elevation 2

Section-elevation 3

Close-up 1

Close-up 2

 

Belum/Banding, Perak

A picture worth a thousand words. So, photos attached herewith are a substitute for the blog post that I owe you guys here. Enjoy!

Bamboo rafting at Banding Island (Photo credit: NFT)

The resort (two thumbs up)

Me in the gorgeous room

grilled tilapia. yummy-licious!

View of the lake

guess what? The waterfall

… and bunch of people enjoying the waterfall

Follow your heart?

I just came back from a night out at Gurney with my fellow friend, angie and her  2 pakistani friends & another musican guy, doing a master on musicology. We had late dinner at Chili’s and followed up by hanging out at the jazz bar at the G, the infamous G-spot. I looooove the voice of Alyson Joyce. She rawk the place by singing mustang sally & billie jean (two thumbs up!). I still love the place, the G. However, the place crowded with people on weekend. Yep.

Anyway, I had an interesting conversation with the new acquaintance. A very deep and meaningful conversation over a ride from USM to Gurney, revealed my truly self. We were talking on the meaning of life and etc etc and the conversation leads to the main thing in my life that I try to avoid, and the weakness that I always try to ignore. He identified two things that will lead me to find the meaning of life: to be more expressive and to use my heart instead of the mind. Yep. I think a lot, and I am not expressive. I am, most of the time, trying to hide my feeling and emotion. He was good enough to trick me into realizing that I need to sort out my feeling in order for me to focus and to discover the meaning of life. A stranger, able to identify my main distraction in life in just a 20 minutes car-ride to the Gurney. That’s amazing. I guess he’s darn good in following his heart that he able to identify people like me that is a thinker, and lead a logical life. I shed all the fantasy and romanticm from my life so that I can lead myself towards my goal in life. He said that there are two ways to achieve the goal, to lead the logical thinking and life in which the road would be pretty much, logical, bleak and boring ( as he say) or to follow your heart in which you may or may not achieve the goal but when you look back, you will see a colorful journey towards where you are now. In a logical way, he is correct. But to lead life based on your heart is something so insignificant to me. 

It got me thinking.

Another advice from him: to be expressive to someone. Or else, that someone will make yourself unfocussed with what you are doing right now. Bingo!

Maybe I should follow his advice?

Ah. I can’t sleep tonight. I can’t stop thinking about things. Or rather, someone. 

Need to get that out of my system, pronto.