Kicking off

Yesterday gym session was awesome! CF organized introductory class of muay thai kickboxing and brazilian jiu-jitsu. I attended the kick-boxing class & my first time trying out a martial art and/or exercise.  Boy, i sweat a lot, kicking & boxing is FUN. I can actually release some of the anger during the session and it feels good afterwards.  

Hopefully D’s feeling better today & I can release stress by booty shaking. mwhahaha.

Oh. I. am. trying. hard. not. to. be. like. a. girl. now. (If you know what I mean). NO where have you been, NO we need to talk, NO why no ring ring ding ding. I can handle it. YES, I can. Gambate!

I need some distraction to this ‘distraction’. Argh. God please help me. 

I’ve been slacking in blog-update. My bad. I’m quite occupied with my distraction & problem. I am sorting out things now. I am going to release ‘red matter’ next week or week after (Refer red matter to the Star Trek movie 2009). I need to decide on which road to take.

Yep, I have thought about it, sorting out pro & cons, did preliminary survey & informal interviews to various parties: friends & acquintances on their views. Thank you so much for advising me. I really appreciate it.  I will decide within this few days and/or next month.

For those who have been bringing quite significant impact to my life for the past few months, Thank you so much.  You made me realize on what I want in life.  Where I should go from now on.  Though we might step on the wrong foot, I have no regret. In fact, I do appreciate it for that part and pieces that you left for me.  It’s a warm experience. Thank you. I wish you could read this one, but I’m sure unlikely … nope.

For others, this is not a saying goodbye whatsoever.  This is just a token of appreciation on something i am so grateful with.  Most of the people would think it is such a waste of time. Not me, I learn something from it & I can know how to handle the situation the next time.  It is a life experience. You got to learn from the wrong step and move forward.  Cest la vie.

I might feel a little disappointed but that is how life it is.  Either you weep about it & stay where it is or weep & move forward. Your choice. I choose to move forward.  If things goes smoothly after this, I am grateful. If it is not, then resolve everything and leave with grace. No need to pressure and pushing the other party to the edge & do bad things. Bad impression is all you will get. 

I will send out my application of assistant consultant soon (cross fingers) & now I’m quite busy with the inception and starting off the study.  I hope I can sort this one out and it will kick off finely. We are famous for achieving something out of nothing (quote from our lovely environmental engineer), i.e. the big bang theory. Ha,ha. It is a sarcastic saying of us the green & fresh padawan running & jumping around in the tree-hugging world. My bad.  :p

I should be scribbling something on the outline of the report but I am procrastinating & harvesting my farm. Thanks to facebook games for lowering my productivity at work. eh, actually it is like a power-booster for me. Slacking & a last minute work/pressure brings good result in term of technical analysis & report production. I am serious! One criteria to survive here is to work under pressure with limited time & able to react/produce results in jiffy & survive in unplanned situation. ah. Such a havoc lifestyle that you will get white hair by the time you are 30. Yes, I am not lying. 

So, welcome to my world.  

iPanema craze

I developed an ipanema obsession. I wish someday I’ll visit Ipanema beach in Rio. I can’t stop listening to ipanema song for months now. And today I bought an ipanema flip-flop.

I’ve been eyeing on the flip-flop since 2007 but didn’t get a chance to own it. And now I’m back in KK- owning a good flip-flop is a must (at least, that’s what I thought).

Bought the new Gisele’s seed collection’s Life in white/gold. I absolutely lovin’ it. Two words best describe the flip-flop: GORGEOUS and COMFY.

I was torn between the Life & Fern in turquoise flip-flop (Pic below). I love to get em’ both!

Aw.. perhaps, I shall get the turquoise next week? *wink wink*

 

Aw well, for now.. the flip-flop added to my mobile shoes collection. Yep, I have a whole of ikea box of shoes in my car boot. mwhahaha.

 

yes, (sigh)..shoes, girls.

same old, same old!

When we went back to the time where everything is FUN; friends are forever; the coolest rule & the dorkiest not etc; it reminds me of the school memories. So much drama & yet, when you think of it back now, it doesn’t look as serious as it is before & most of the time, you will laugh at your action you thought was firm/serious or cool. It was fun making fun of the nerds, to escape classes, making full use of your power (i.e. bringing handphone to school & you were the school prefect etc). Remember the school bazaar where your class has the coolest stall; choir competition; battle of the band/ singing competition; sports day!! and so on..

well, it was fun catching up with school friends as it reminds you of the good old times. Met a couple of classmates with Jessie few days ago at Little Italy. We were catching up with each other. Some about to start a job, some starting a Master degree in Australia & so on. Time flies so fast that you don’t even realize it. Just the thought of you having fun in high school & the moment after that, everyone starting to get a job. So yeah.

And though everyone change to become more mature & stuff like that; there is something inside you that would not be changed & that make you truly youself.

 Morale of the story: make every moment meaningful as you can’t turn back time

tag me?

Instructions: Remove 1 question from below, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 19 (20 actually) questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged. Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all. Amen to that !

1. At what age do you wish to marry? I wish to marry at the age of 30. amen! or maybe push it up to 35. double amen!

2. If you were to be stranded on a desert island, who are the 3 people you would take with you? Why? the great one, leonidas receiver & rafael nadal. because i love all!

3. Where is the place that you want to go the most? Mallorca!!, all french polynesian islands & Alaska. urm. wait, I wanna to go Swiss Alps too. and Africa. darn.. I wanna go to every corner of the world. there!

4. If you can have 1 dream come true, what would it be? to live on my own

5. What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? having someone told me that im not a loser & im a pretty little girl

6. What are you afraid to lose the most? friends & best friend that i share every details with

7. If you win $1 million, what would you do? I want to travel around the world with friends & settle down at place i love the most! and invest & start my own business at d new place

8. If you meet someone that you love, would you confess to him/her? Or would you keep it to yourself and observe from afar? Depends…

9. If you could go back in time, would you like to change something in your life? to be more rebel to get what i want in life; not just going back in time, in the future perhaps?

10. Which type of person do you hate most? Hypocrite and two-faced person.

11. What is your ambition? Architect and a pilot.and Im far from achieving it.

13. What is the thing that will make you think he/she is bad? i dont know

14. My question: Have you ever been betrayed? Have you forgiven that person? nope and nope

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life? to know the real you and maximize your potential

16. Are you a shopaholic or no? guilty as charge!

7. Which actress or actors you would like to be? no idea!

18. It would be 2008 in a few hours, do you have a new year’s resolution? refer to my new resolution post

19. Do you have any plans for tomorrow? not yet; tennis perhaps 

The great one

This post dedicated to the great one. I’ve known the great one for almost 5 years. The great one taught me a lot about life; things that the great one feel I should improve, help me to look into world in the more variety point of view & help me to open up my mind to so many things & opportunities.

I already miss the great one. I’m terribly going to miss having 15 minutes away from the great one.

It’s almost midnight when I’m writing this & seriously, I’m crying like a river.

I have found the one I can cling to, the one I can fight with & the one I can talk to. The great one is more that anything to me. The great one has been & always been my greatest friend ever & I will never ever going to forget the great one.

There is so much to talk & to remember about the great one that I can not really jot down everything here. There are no words that can perfectly describe on how I felt after these years.

But everything is still fresh in my memory. I will treasure it for the rest of my life.

I have met the nicest soul ever in this life & I’m grateful to god for giving me a chance to met the great one. I’m praying everyday to god for good health & happier future for the great one. The great one deserved heaven for all the good things the great one shared with me.

I’m crying now not because I think it’s over. I’m crying for reminiscing memories for the past few years since Labuan days until up to this day I’m in KL.

I want to stop the time but I can’t. I got to move on. I need to go to the next stage of my life. The great one believes that I will have a good life in the future. I should start believing that too.

When I got out of the car; I refused to say goodbye. I don’t say good-bye.
I say good night.

The one & only

People think being the only one would be cool; would get everything she/he wants; would get all the attention; would get anything he/she wishes.

Well you are wrong.

I think it is a burden to the one & only as too much pressure being channel to the one & only. Hope, expectation are the burden to the one & only as well. And worse, life of the one & only will be based on how they wants the one & only. OK I know I repeated the phrase ‘one & only” so many times. This is to emphasize that this is the real issue the one & only faced.

What if the one & only wants a different life from what is expected from the guardian? What if the one & only wants more than what life has to offer? What if the one & only wants to make his/her own decision? What if the one & only wants to achieve his/her own ambition, expectation, hope; rather different from what is being expected & hoped for from the guardian? What will the one & only do?

Will he/she follow the expectation & hope from the one who raised him/her or would he/she will go his/her own way?

If he/she follows whats being expected & hoped for, would he/she be happy with his/her life?

Or, if he/she follows what he/she wants; his/her own expectation & hope; would he/she will hurt the guardian; & letting down them?

Which path will he/she should choose?

WordPress!

Hello wordpress. welcome to wordpress iDa!

heh, been blogging on and off from various blog sites. yes, and everytime, i will write and delete. So, Im hoping with this, I would write consistentlyand stay for a certain period of time (until I find another better ones, lol).

Im feeling exhausted from the saturday outing. I walked to the DTC to meet my friends, and snap few pictures around the DTC as we DON’T really have pictures of the 3 of us together (shockingly true!).

Had late lunch at Sg Wang & went to Pavilion KL. Aw, the latest mall in town is simply irresistable. Housed all the luxurious brand! and, of course the second Forever 21 store is in there as well! ah, i bought another black lace top! It’s love at first sight! Simply classy & simple! It’s worth buying.

Im done with studies. Im done with my degree. I have no idea what to do now. Seriously freaking out everyday thinking about it. I had bad dream EVERY night since my final exam ended. I guess Im still in the student thinking mode and switching to working-mode would be like a huge transition that i do not know whether I can handle it.

I guess i should start looking for job now. It’s the only logical way to move on with life- apart from being a slacker, which is so not my forte. I have no idea on what job to look for; I know the easiest way is to look for job related to my major etc but Im looking for more than 9-to-5 job. I want some out-of-ordinary job which I would enjoy doing it. OK it may sound like Im too choosy but I feel that if we do not like the job we are doing then we would not be happy. I want job that I enjoy doing it & able for me to learn something else everytime & move forward. That’s my definition of ideal job!. Ha.ha.

Since Im majoring in environmental science & management, so the most relevant job to me would be working with the authority handling the environment, waste management, consultant, MNC’s health & safety department or even with NGO’s. Hmm.. I personally feel that I shouldn’t just narrow down to this few options and should look beyond that. Or shall I start my own business? I’m planning to but I need to do networking. lol.people networking.

Im yawning away. Shall hit the sacks now. ’till then.